I bounce back and forth . At first the anger just motivated me to look into as much as possible, that caused a bit of overload. Then I really started to let go of alot, and actually began to feeling happy . I am content not attending meetings , and not reading the literature. But now ,ever since an elder stopped by, I'm going through the anger once again especially since my husband wants to go back to meetings. I want to be supportive of him ,and I really don't think it will last, but I don't want to allow the brain washing methods of meetings to interfere with my emotions ever again. I deal with it by coming on here, and reading interesting veiwpoints ,and especially for the great sense of humor.......I laugh out loud again something that has been missing in my life for way to long . I am so thankful for this site, it is probably the only thing keeping me sane at this time .
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ANGRY WANGRY!!
by lowden inhow have you dealt, or how are you dealing with the anger, frustration and rightful indignation that you may feel towards the wts or even god for the way it so negatively impacted on your life?
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Rules Created by the Body of Elders and an Off Topic Question
by XJW4EVR inin my latest post in my story, i recounted how my dad and another elder made attendance at high school sports events a no-no.
in retrospect, i don't recall anything in print that made attendance at local sporting events a shepherding offense.
maybe my memory is faulty.. did your boe make rules like this?.
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In our small town Football is like a religion , huge emphasis . Several Elders never missed a friday night game .(meeting was thurs. night ) My own hubby never missed a game . But our own kids were suppose to reject any idea of participation. How hypocritical....and the kids notice they are not stupid.
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Memorial
by Soapydish inthis is the first year in my life that i won't be going to that thing with the bread and the wine.
you know what i'm talking about.
even though i gradually stopped going to meets since i was 21
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We will be attending this year . An elder finally stopped by this weekend to see if we were alive .And my husband wants to go back to meetings. It is so weird they know something is up, but are truely afraid to just ask "why have you stopped coming ". If it were just me I wouldn't bother , but my husband doesn't share the same doubts as me ,and I know it's important to him .I wouldn't appreciate having to go by myself if it was the other way around. My son told me he absolutly is not going ,so that will be a big issue I'm sure. I really hope not to be greeted with sugar coated expessions. I may puke.
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Euchere 500 speed Nutsy
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In what condition are your roads where you live?
by JH inhere in quebec, the roads are horrible.
not only in my town, but the whole province, the road infrastructure is falling apart.. just to give an example... on the street where i live, the road wasn't paved in 40 years.
much of the city is like that, and all you see is pot holes, patches, and huge cracks everywhere.. you'd believe that they don't want to pave just before armageddon....would be a waste of money
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Good grief how did the national news miss that Armagedon had hit California ?
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hello there
by koko1 injust wanted to pop my head in and say hi.
i was brought up a jw - never believed in the religion or god for that matter.
no matter how many people tried to convince me.
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Welcome koko1,
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Where were you at PART 2: What changes took place leading up to the....
by Check_Your_Premises in...exact moment when you knew the jw didn't have the truth?.
i have been rivited by the stories of all the epiphanies that took place.. but actually i think there was a great deal that must have taken place to allow that moment.. what gave you the confidence in yourself to trust your own thoughts?
what personal growth took place?
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I think I have always had instilled in me from my non witness Dad and Grandfather the ability to use critical thought. My whole life I have struggled internally " is this really the truth " , I would waver back and forth for years . In the past few years several critical moments have lead me to the path I am now on . Facing a life and death situation with my mother and finding out I had no support from so called witness friends was a major eye opener .Yet who stood by me was my Da'd brother whom I had partially shunned for many years. The catalyst that finally allowed me to search into forbidden waters ( apostste sites ) was a Dr.Phil show. It was about two girls raised in a mind controlling religion. I connected my experience so much with the brain washing ideas these girls went through . At the end of the show he had a link to Steve Hassan's website dealing with cults , and brain washing methods . That lead to Randy Watters site and ultimately here. It's been a roller coaster year full of emotion. But I am feeling a happiness , and respect for myself like no other time in my life. There are many bumps in the road to come I'm sure . Haven't been contacted by the elders ...yet but it's coming .Have not made a stand with Witness relatives yet, but it will happen sooner than later.
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We have a friend in need
by TheListener inwe have a kind considerate and loving individual who needs our support and love.. this is someone who has posted helpful information, encouraging words and shared himself with us when we needed it.
i'm talking about our good friend auld soul.
as has been going through some tough times lately.
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(((( AuldSoul )))) You should be called Gentle Soul , I find you to be a very caring , loyal , loving person. I have been on here since last November, and you have always been one that I have enjoyed reading posts from. Very insightful, balanced and caring....... I would like to say, I have appreciated that so much ! A few years ago I came to the realization that my supposed "friends " really had no clue to what that term means.I have not been Da'd or Df'd, it was just a conclusion I had to face when I went through a personal tragedy. I had to come to face the facts ,I could only really rely upon myself, and a very few family members . My misguided notions that my witness "family" would rally to my side in time of need was dashed to pieces. It was probably the hardest time of my life , but looking back it was a life experience that has truly opened my heart and eyes . It was painful for quite a while ,but I have grown past it now and am happy to have a better perspective on life . I wish you only the best on your new adventure in life . It has changed course yes ,but you will be blessed with more new interesting friends I'm sure. In time you will look back and have good memories of your past friends. Those that are true will come back to you, those that are not well frankly just don't deserve you. Funny, I have the same thought as you about the letter to Dr.Phil .In fact I have a letter ready to be sent, in it I suggest for him to read some of the posts here on JWD to get an understanding of how determental the JW organization is on peoples lives .If I get a respose I'll pass it on to you , maybe he gives group rates !!!!!!
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Do some people still think that you're a JW?
by JH indo you have the impression that some still think that you're a jw?.
let it be old friends or acquaintances or work collegues or even family, did you take the time to tell them that you're no longer a jw?.
i know that my cousins think that i'm still a jw.
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Yes...... so far I have only told my non-witness sister-in-law and my Dad . This past weekend I told a Jw friend a little more than I intended to....like : I think the society is screwed up, and witnesses are mislead to follow lies about blood and disfellowshipping . My mouth runneth over. I also told her I was happy not attending brain numbing meetings anymore. I then back pedaled a bit when I heard the anxiety building in her voice , and said I hadn't made any definite decisions yet.(liar)
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Ironic hypocrisy of Bethel "service"
by MinisterAmos ini normally let people make their own decisions with a very hands off approach, but after reading the "living together in bethel" (or whatever the name of the piece of crap book is) i need to vent a bit.. anyone here is very familiar with the "quit your job or at least cut way back" talks that we were subjected to seemingly every other week.
after all, good dubz need time to prepare, attend, pioneer etc.
a good friend of mine left her job at an insurance co. to pioneer.
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We are constantly told not to miss meetings , don't let work interfere . If you do miss for work reasons your looked upon as weak..... A friend of mine has a son at Bethel right now. She confided in me she worries about him because his department is so busy he is required to work late which means missing meetings. This was a regular occurance over the summer. He worked on their vehicles. I guess it's a double standard , especially when an overseer needs an oil change.